After a long time iam getting back to my writing... have not been able to take out time for my personal things coz of Office and Home...Leave to office at 8:30am, busy schedule at office, return back by 7 or 7:30pm, spend some time with ishu playing with him and then back to work.Sleep late at night and then wake up again at 6am. Today being a sunday i was supposed to go out n meet friends but My darling hubby was not in mood as he did not want to spend money (reasons are genuine).
Today i want to express my feelings which i have not been able to share with JD for some time now. My life has changed drastically after ma left me alone and went on 15th Dec 10. Like i have always said in my previous blogs i donot know where to start from as there are a LOT of things in my mind and heart. Today when i sit and think of my life without my Ma i feel there is a void somewhere which cannot be filled. My son Ishaan who is 1yr 4 months old does not have his nani to teach him hindi language, teach him about his mum's bihari culture but he surely has got the mian traits of Ma of being super active kid. I feel lonely today without her. Don't know how will i get my housewrming done, sister's marriage done. These are some of my concerns and fears. My dad is in udupi and sister in Hyd, all in different places. Jd has also changed now. He no longer cares for me like he used to do before. I continue to have issues with his mother which is getting worst day by day. So in short my life is a hell now. Only gud and the best thing which god has given me is my son Ishaan who is different froma all the kids. He is jovial and active. Surprisingly he is dam attached to me which iam thankful to god.
My only pray to god is to return my ma.. i still have a small belief that i will get her back some day. I still believe that i would wake up one day with my ma in front of me....
Miss u ma.... I do feel ur there with me.... Please do come back.... I need u....
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